Life is a playhouse of emotions!!Very strange how your emotions digs deep through your heart uncovering a treasure or leaving a big hole in your heart.Lost to yourself in the battle of love and relationships.Its a big realisation to me this day that the more you love...the more intense you become..The more intense you become you become ..the more the love you get back or very often the pain you get back out of it ...I would explain to you the pain part of love which is what I experience every day of my life lately...All these shouldn't make you conclude that I have a boyfriend and either he has ditched me or he is not soo bothered...Neither of these..Life can play with us in other ways also..So it was wisely written by the "Anonymous" that "Variety is the spice of life"..It's with the people whom I loved the most..my dearest friends..where they my friends or my kids..It was a infinitely large bucket of love that I stored up for them.It was all the happiness, the sharing, the concern and the tiny bits of understanding that let you feel, you have something to stick on for..
I started this post a long time back and it has remained a long time in my drafts..Months have passed..Today I have regained a long lost inspiration to finish this post. Dont know why!!Life had gained a new dimension with the life in Chennai but this life has also lost its charm and glory..Like my history teacher in school always used to say, "Everything has a time of glory and once its reaches its zenith of glory,it slowly climbs down the peak to fall to the bottom"..Is that is what is happening to me now?I have lost those millions of happy hours which was in store for me. I am alone,lonely and lost..I feel..
But is that a little spark of light in my life again..unable to realise..Is it for the happy feat or the things which I not so like to think?Do I just move again into that inner depths and layers of trust..Breaking past through the crust, into the inner cores of a long formed relationship...It all just began in a day when I woke up from my ever terrorizing journey in a train..As I have never explained to you, train journeys forms another corner of the dark loneliness which eats my heart. The day when I didnt even a place in the train until when one of those sweet souls who share the profit from the same owner whom I do, offered a corner of her no soo spacious berth. Talking about trains diverts my mind and
more when I share a seat with someone..I cant help to say its a little part of heart we share..Its a bond unbreakable we form..Coming back to where I was..It was after one of these train journeys that something usual happened in a very unusual way in life...It was then that I had a realisation which was not often..But I hit back my intuitions quoting this happens every time. But there soo many strange coincidences in this case which pulled me to surety that everything will turn out to that vicious circle which I am well aware of.
But the facebook request the next day, a little surprised me ...A little is a bit purposeful because I have done it before because I had a huge lot of things to convince before it sank deep..But then the days had passed and I never had to say a word..The surprise factor was the message ..What did that message contain..As you bet it was only a "hi" ..It was my response to that "hi", i felt, which changed things..But I also had to give a "hi" immediately back because I had a lot of things to convince........
This story continues...........
I started this post a long time back and it has remained a long time in my drafts..Months have passed..Today I have regained a long lost inspiration to finish this post. Dont know why!!Life had gained a new dimension with the life in Chennai but this life has also lost its charm and glory..Like my history teacher in school always used to say, "Everything has a time of glory and once its reaches its zenith of glory,it slowly climbs down the peak to fall to the bottom"..Is that is what is happening to me now?I have lost those millions of happy hours which was in store for me. I am alone,lonely and lost..I feel..
But is that a little spark of light in my life again..unable to realise..Is it for the happy feat or the things which I not so like to think?Do I just move again into that inner depths and layers of trust..Breaking past through the crust, into the inner cores of a long formed relationship...It all just began in a day when I woke up from my ever terrorizing journey in a train..As I have never explained to you, train journeys forms another corner of the dark loneliness which eats my heart. The day when I didnt even a place in the train until when one of those sweet souls who share the profit from the same owner whom I do, offered a corner of her no soo spacious berth. Talking about trains diverts my mind and
more when I share a seat with someone..I cant help to say its a little part of heart we share..Its a bond unbreakable we form..Coming back to where I was..It was after one of these train journeys that something usual happened in a very unusual way in life...It was then that I had a realisation which was not often..But I hit back my intuitions quoting this happens every time. But there soo many strange coincidences in this case which pulled me to surety that everything will turn out to that vicious circle which I am well aware of.
But the facebook request the next day, a little surprised me ...A little is a bit purposeful because I have done it before because I had a huge lot of things to convince before it sank deep..But then the days had passed and I never had to say a word..The surprise factor was the message ..What did that message contain..As you bet it was only a "hi" ..It was my response to that "hi", i felt, which changed things..But I also had to give a "hi" immediately back because I had a lot of things to convince........
This story continues...........
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